Just a little update...

Someone just wrote about one of my pictures (in my eyes not a very good one), especially about my body which he liked. Well, the reason to do no photos of myself anymore is that my body does not look how it looked some two years ago. Since then it became very thin, I´ve lost some weight. My ass looks like it´s having cellulitis, my legs are thin... so I don´t do any pictures because it wouldn´t be a nice sight. My face looks older - something which I didn´t recognize until somebody pointed this out some months ago by comparing a picture of me from 2005 with one from 2008. Not very flattering but true.

My new job also isn´t that nice as I first thought, I´m getting frightened when I have to work and therefore I tend to stay at home most of the time having headaches. Go figure: it seems that I´m coming down with either Burn out or a depression... don´t know, I´ll have to seek help from my general practioner. Maybe I´ll quit and seek for a new meaning in life... becoming a temporary "houseman". It all looks quite empty right now... most things are not making any sense anymore. I don´t even know why I´m writing this stuff here because I don´t like reading those things myself.

But there´s hope because my boyfriend is very caring and supportive - although he sometimes doesn´t understand that I have to figure out several things myself and that he can only be there for me... anyway, have a nice day.